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Sunday, April 18, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
I've waited Three Years to be This Old
I turned 21 today, (or rather yesterday)
I would just like to take this moment to stop and appreciate how far I have come. Particularly in the last three years.
I have grown into the young woman that I am today, I have learned how to provide for myself and appreciate all the things God gave me on this earth. I've begun to get back in touch with the meaning and purpose of things. To realize the things I should pursue to gain genuine joy rather than superficial happiness. I have loved and lost, and loved and been blesses with a wonderful man who is my husband-to-be.
I had a lovely mild evening out with really good friends. We had a few drinks and a lot of laughs.
Life is going to get crazy as I finish up school, work a summer on the island, plan a wedding and pack up my childhood to embark on my adult life adventure.
I love my life. I have been incredibly blessed in many ways. And tonight, I am pausing to appreciate it all. :)
I would just like to take this moment to stop and appreciate how far I have come. Particularly in the last three years.
I have grown into the young woman that I am today, I have learned how to provide for myself and appreciate all the things God gave me on this earth. I've begun to get back in touch with the meaning and purpose of things. To realize the things I should pursue to gain genuine joy rather than superficial happiness. I have loved and lost, and loved and been blesses with a wonderful man who is my husband-to-be.
I had a lovely mild evening out with really good friends. We had a few drinks and a lot of laughs.
Life is going to get crazy as I finish up school, work a summer on the island, plan a wedding and pack up my childhood to embark on my adult life adventure.
I love my life. I have been incredibly blessed in many ways. And tonight, I am pausing to appreciate it all. :)
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Hallmark Holidays
It's Valentine's day! ~_~
I have been incredibly blessed this year. My sweetheart is one of the best out there. He is kind and generous, to everyone. He holds the door open for me, and holds my hand at the store. He's my best friend, we can sit for hours and not DO anything, and that's ok. He takes the time to listen to what I have to say, and he's not afraid to laugh at (or with) me. He puts my name into songs and sings them to me, and dances in the middle of the frozen food section with me. He has a good and tender heart. There is so much more that words simply can't describe. I am blessed to call him mine. I can't wait to marry this man.
to my darling Rob. I love you! <3
I have been incredibly blessed this year. My sweetheart is one of the best out there. He is kind and generous, to everyone. He holds the door open for me, and holds my hand at the store. He's my best friend, we can sit for hours and not DO anything, and that's ok. He takes the time to listen to what I have to say, and he's not afraid to laugh at (or with) me. He puts my name into songs and sings them to me, and dances in the middle of the frozen food section with me. He has a good and tender heart. There is so much more that words simply can't describe. I am blessed to call him mine. I can't wait to marry this man.
to my darling Rob. I love you! <3
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Personalization is of utmost importance
I have this inane need to always visually change my surroundings.
I typically re-arrange me room/furniture every few months. I'd do it more often if it wasn't such a pain in the ass. I also need things to be visually appealing. I have customized my mac to the point where it is so fine-tuned to my work-flow that being on other computers messes me up. Not to mention I can customize the look of every little thing on my mac, right down to the trash can icon. These things are very important to me. They have to look good and they have to be the way I want them to be.
My point of this whole tirade is that I hate windows...i know it seems unrelated but let me explain...
I've been eyeing netbooks for a couple months now. As much as i love and adore my big beautiful iMac it is not easy to transport. I figure with a netbook I can has the internets on the go and not have to worry about my iMac being up north in the fire-trap that is Mission House.
Then I got some of my tax information yesterday and found out that unemployment had paid me $300 i didn't know about! whaaaaa?! awesome! ^_^ so off I went to Best Buy to get the netbook I looked at a few days prior. "Nate" helped me out; super awesome salesperson in that he answered all my questions and didn't try to sell me crap I didn't want. Though I did pick up a few judgemental vibes when I mentioned that I'm a Mac person...lol.
So I got me a shiny little Asus...something or another...i don't really know the specs of it...it gets on the internet...that's really all i want.
HOWEVER i got it home, plugged it in, set it up and spent lots of time yelling at Ernie (my netbook) because windows is STUPID. not user friendly...or pretty. (i'm using Windows 7 Starter by the way) I was utterly miffed by the fact that upon further investigation I couldn't change my desktop background?! WHAAA?! at this point I seriously considered taking the computer back and asking them to put windows xp on it...or give me the older model with XP already on it. This is a very serious matter folks! upon even further investigation though, i figured out how to change it through some weird software that was pre-loaded on here, thank god I wasn't doomed to look at the same stupid ocean for the rest of Ernie's life!
now that that was taken care of. I like my netbook much better. It gets on the internet has a decent sized screen...( 10" i think?) and will do what i want it to..
so I'm happy with it. It's not mac. but it'll do. for now...until I can afford a macbook. :D
besides that; my fiance and I decided generally when we're going to get married (lol getting closer! better than sometime after I graduate...) sometime next spring 2011. It's gonna be a lot of work getting this wedding together; it won't be super traditional, and we'll probably be making our garments...yay >_< hehe.
also: creative interpretation has the potential to singlehandedly kill thousands of student's creativity.
UGH!
I typically re-arrange me room/furniture every few months. I'd do it more often if it wasn't such a pain in the ass. I also need things to be visually appealing. I have customized my mac to the point where it is so fine-tuned to my work-flow that being on other computers messes me up. Not to mention I can customize the look of every little thing on my mac, right down to the trash can icon. These things are very important to me. They have to look good and they have to be the way I want them to be.
My point of this whole tirade is that I hate windows...i know it seems unrelated but let me explain...
I've been eyeing netbooks for a couple months now. As much as i love and adore my big beautiful iMac it is not easy to transport. I figure with a netbook I can has the internets on the go and not have to worry about my iMac being up north in the fire-trap that is Mission House.
Then I got some of my tax information yesterday and found out that unemployment had paid me $300 i didn't know about! whaaaaa?! awesome! ^_^ so off I went to Best Buy to get the netbook I looked at a few days prior. "Nate" helped me out; super awesome salesperson in that he answered all my questions and didn't try to sell me crap I didn't want. Though I did pick up a few judgemental vibes when I mentioned that I'm a Mac person...lol.
So I got me a shiny little Asus...something or another...i don't really know the specs of it...it gets on the internet...that's really all i want.
HOWEVER i got it home, plugged it in, set it up and spent lots of time yelling at Ernie (my netbook) because windows is STUPID. not user friendly...or pretty. (i'm using Windows 7 Starter by the way) I was utterly miffed by the fact that upon further investigation I couldn't change my desktop background?! WHAAA?! at this point I seriously considered taking the computer back and asking them to put windows xp on it...or give me the older model with XP already on it. This is a very serious matter folks! upon even further investigation though, i figured out how to change it through some weird software that was pre-loaded on here, thank god I wasn't doomed to look at the same stupid ocean for the rest of Ernie's life!
now that that was taken care of. I like my netbook much better. It gets on the internet has a decent sized screen...( 10" i think?) and will do what i want it to..
so I'm happy with it. It's not mac. but it'll do. for now...until I can afford a macbook. :D
besides that; my fiance and I decided generally when we're going to get married (lol getting closer! better than sometime after I graduate...) sometime next spring 2011. It's gonna be a lot of work getting this wedding together; it won't be super traditional, and we'll probably be making our garments...yay >_< hehe.
also: creative interpretation has the potential to singlehandedly kill thousands of student's creativity.
UGH!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Oh The Humanity!
2010 is here to stay, I think this year will be better than the last; there are many changes happening in my life as I'll finish college, "grow-up"(HA), plan my wedding and my farm. However I do not want to speculate too much on the future, lest I forget about the day in front of me.
Which brings me to the joys of today.*
(*note sarcasm)
Nothing like starting your day bright and early 7am (an ungodly our for a Night Owl like me.) after going to bed and hour or two before...
crawling out of bed, into the brisk cold january morning and off to my favorite* kind of class. Drawing & Composition II. I've only been taking drawing classes for 8? years now. A girl can only draw so many sphere's and cylinders and still lifes. (YAWN) I want robots! and dinosaurs! and MOOSE(s)! maybe a giraffe for good measure.
So along with the boring subject, and the same old techniques over and over and over again. I get it. highlight, shadow, reflective highlight. done. I understand that "fine arts" are the foundation for EVERYTHING...but i get it, I've jumped through the silly hoops for years. But this isn't really the point of this tirade,
my biggest pet peeve about art classes is the supply list*
(*see starving artist)
WHY do I have to buy the super-ultra-premium shiny spiral-bound huge-child-eating special drawing paper pad. WHY? Particularly for LEARNING, wtf. You know you're gonna suck, you just are, so why suck on a piece of paper, the cost of which could buy you a tasty meal. When there is perfectly good clean, white paper at a fraction of the cost, that way if you mess up it's not a big deal, no pressure, this paper only cost 10cents, less than a package of ramen. "but it's for your portfolio, and it'll last for years to come..." your instructors will chant this mantra. I'll be damned if I put CLASSWORK into a portfolio, because when taken to a prospective employer or client they'll be like 'OH, you took THAT class' because all the other students in the class have taken their work from the same assignment to them. No thanks. I'll do original stuff on my own time (using the techniques I learned on my super-cheap paper) and put THAT in my portfolio, that way when I take it to a client they'll be like 'we don't recognize these assignments' and I'll be like 'that's because I did it on my own time from my own ideas' and they'll be like 'WOW, you must be really motivated and driven and look at how creative you are! let me give you money!' So when I'm ready to create 'masterpieces' not do 'homework' THEN I'll put it on nice paper. But while I'm learning and practicing I'll use the cheap stuff, thanks.
My other issue. Size, WHY do the drawings have to be so HUGE? I mean seriously. Bigger is not always better, I like to travel quick and light, carrying around a giant pad of paper creates a lot of wind resistance and makes your person take up far more space than should be socially acceptable. I don't understand why art is "better" if it takes up entire walls. What am I going to do with a 3ft by 4ft drawing of spheres and cones? Nobody wants to put that on the wall, and since it's on the afore mentioned god-paper you can't just throw it out or burn it, (between the paper and the amount of graphite it took to cover it, that's like 3 meals!) Just because you draw big doesn't mean you draw good. I would rather on a drawing will fit in my backpack. Then there are no concerns about taking flight on your way from the parking lot to the classroom.
I refuse to believe that I have to buy expensive art supplies to create "good" art. I think it speaks more of a persons creative ability if they can create 'awesome' out of computer paper and crayons.
rawr.
that's all. just rawr.
i hate art classes. ~_~
Which brings me to the joys of today.*
(*note sarcasm)
Nothing like starting your day bright and early 7am (an ungodly our for a Night Owl like me.) after going to bed and hour or two before...
crawling out of bed, into the brisk cold january morning and off to my favorite* kind of class. Drawing & Composition II. I've only been taking drawing classes for 8? years now. A girl can only draw so many sphere's and cylinders and still lifes. (YAWN) I want robots! and dinosaurs! and MOOSE(s)! maybe a giraffe for good measure.
So along with the boring subject, and the same old techniques over and over and over again. I get it. highlight, shadow, reflective highlight. done. I understand that "fine arts" are the foundation for EVERYTHING...but i get it, I've jumped through the silly hoops for years. But this isn't really the point of this tirade,
my biggest pet peeve about art classes is the supply list*
(*see starving artist)
WHY do I have to buy the super-ultra-premium shiny spiral-bound huge-child-eating special drawing paper pad. WHY? Particularly for LEARNING, wtf. You know you're gonna suck, you just are, so why suck on a piece of paper, the cost of which could buy you a tasty meal. When there is perfectly good clean, white paper at a fraction of the cost, that way if you mess up it's not a big deal, no pressure, this paper only cost 10cents, less than a package of ramen. "but it's for your portfolio, and it'll last for years to come..." your instructors will chant this mantra. I'll be damned if I put CLASSWORK into a portfolio, because when taken to a prospective employer or client they'll be like 'OH, you took THAT class' because all the other students in the class have taken their work from the same assignment to them. No thanks. I'll do original stuff on my own time (using the techniques I learned on my super-cheap paper) and put THAT in my portfolio, that way when I take it to a client they'll be like 'we don't recognize these assignments' and I'll be like 'that's because I did it on my own time from my own ideas' and they'll be like 'WOW, you must be really motivated and driven and look at how creative you are! let me give you money!' So when I'm ready to create 'masterpieces' not do 'homework' THEN I'll put it on nice paper. But while I'm learning and practicing I'll use the cheap stuff, thanks.
My other issue. Size, WHY do the drawings have to be so HUGE? I mean seriously. Bigger is not always better, I like to travel quick and light, carrying around a giant pad of paper creates a lot of wind resistance and makes your person take up far more space than should be socially acceptable. I don't understand why art is "better" if it takes up entire walls. What am I going to do with a 3ft by 4ft drawing of spheres and cones? Nobody wants to put that on the wall, and since it's on the afore mentioned god-paper you can't just throw it out or burn it, (between the paper and the amount of graphite it took to cover it, that's like 3 meals!) Just because you draw big doesn't mean you draw good. I would rather on a drawing will fit in my backpack. Then there are no concerns about taking flight on your way from the parking lot to the classroom.
I refuse to believe that I have to buy expensive art supplies to create "good" art. I think it speaks more of a persons creative ability if they can create 'awesome' out of computer paper and crayons.
rawr.
that's all. just rawr.
i hate art classes. ~_~
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Past, Present and Forward!
The new year is almost here!
I can't believe it, while the minutes crawl, the days the years fly. I do just want to take a minute to reflect on the changes and the difficulties I've overcome in just a year. A year ago I was miserable and desperate, trapped. I was worked two terrible winter jobs, still without a penny to my name. I headed north for the summer with dreams of peace and freedom. It was a bit rocky at first, but by the end of the summer I had gained those two things, though not in the way I expected them. Now the year ends and the new one begins and I am engaged to the man of my dreams. The one God brought to me, for me, and I for him. The way we met and began to spend time together is simply to "coincidental" to be anything but a godsend. I love my darling so very much and I look forward to a happy life with him.
I'm on course now to be graduated with an Associates in Illustration by this time next year. I haven't been able to find any traditional work. But I have managed to pick up a few freelance jobs, which range from design to dogsitting. Which leaves me with a lot of time for myself. I have been trying hard not to simply waste it, though sometimes 'nothing' days are nice. After such a crazy summer it is so nice to just spend quiet peaceful days at home. I've spent lots of time creating all manner of things, catching up on my reading, learning how to do new things from the internet, spend time with my family and my darling, and dreaming about the homestead I want to someday have.
I did a lot of growing up this year. I've done a lot of growing up in the past few years. I've also learned a lot of important lessons. I learned the value of a dollar and the importance of "making-do" and also of being thrifty. I've learned what it means to be in a relationship; both good and bad. I wouldn't wish my ex on anyone, but I am thankful for the lessons he taught me, without them I wouldn't be as mature as I am now. I'm beginning to learn what it means to love someone, to be a partner or a team with your other. I've realized (and am unspeakably thankful) how fortunate and blessed I've been with the family God has given me. Not everyone has been as lucky as I have, I hope that someday I'll be able to pass that on to my kids. I'm trying to be responsible, to think ahead and pray often.
As for next year;
I'm not one for New Years resolutions. I probably won't start an exercise regime, or go on a diet (at least not until the summer) I will however do my best to stay positive through all my classes as dreary as they may be. I'll do what it takes to graduate next December.
I'll continue to strengthen my relationship with Rob, to understand him better and to love and support him, so that we have a healthy foundation for our marriage. I'll also start to formulate plans for our wedding.
I hope to make some new friends and enjoy the Island in the summer.
I eagerly await the blessings God has for me. It will be a good year.
I can't believe it, while the minutes crawl, the days the years fly. I do just want to take a minute to reflect on the changes and the difficulties I've overcome in just a year. A year ago I was miserable and desperate, trapped. I was worked two terrible winter jobs, still without a penny to my name. I headed north for the summer with dreams of peace and freedom. It was a bit rocky at first, but by the end of the summer I had gained those two things, though not in the way I expected them. Now the year ends and the new one begins and I am engaged to the man of my dreams. The one God brought to me, for me, and I for him. The way we met and began to spend time together is simply to "coincidental" to be anything but a godsend. I love my darling so very much and I look forward to a happy life with him.
I'm on course now to be graduated with an Associates in Illustration by this time next year. I haven't been able to find any traditional work. But I have managed to pick up a few freelance jobs, which range from design to dogsitting. Which leaves me with a lot of time for myself. I have been trying hard not to simply waste it, though sometimes 'nothing' days are nice. After such a crazy summer it is so nice to just spend quiet peaceful days at home. I've spent lots of time creating all manner of things, catching up on my reading, learning how to do new things from the internet, spend time with my family and my darling, and dreaming about the homestead I want to someday have.
I did a lot of growing up this year. I've done a lot of growing up in the past few years. I've also learned a lot of important lessons. I learned the value of a dollar and the importance of "making-do" and also of being thrifty. I've learned what it means to be in a relationship; both good and bad. I wouldn't wish my ex on anyone, but I am thankful for the lessons he taught me, without them I wouldn't be as mature as I am now. I'm beginning to learn what it means to love someone, to be a partner or a team with your other. I've realized (and am unspeakably thankful) how fortunate and blessed I've been with the family God has given me. Not everyone has been as lucky as I have, I hope that someday I'll be able to pass that on to my kids. I'm trying to be responsible, to think ahead and pray often.
As for next year;
I'm not one for New Years resolutions. I probably won't start an exercise regime, or go on a diet (at least not until the summer) I will however do my best to stay positive through all my classes as dreary as they may be. I'll do what it takes to graduate next December.
I'll continue to strengthen my relationship with Rob, to understand him better and to love and support him, so that we have a healthy foundation for our marriage. I'll also start to formulate plans for our wedding.
I hope to make some new friends and enjoy the Island in the summer.
I eagerly await the blessings God has for me. It will be a good year.
Friday, December 4, 2009
A Modest Proposal
I'm engaged!
A year ago I never would have thought this would be the case
hell, I wouldn't have thought I'd be engaged 6months ago!
But I happened to meet the perfect man not so long ago
We are two peas in a pod
similar but different enough to be interesting
he loves me
i love him
I didn't think he existed
the one who is as perfect for me as I am for him
now don't get me wrong,
he's certainly not perfect
but he's perfect for me.
he gave me a beautiful ring
proposed on horseback in the rolling hills of upstate New York.
We'll get married in a year or two, once I'm finished with school.
We'll have a small hobby farm and provide for ourselves.
I'm estatic
I never thought I'd meet the one
but here he is!
A blessing indeed. :)
A year ago I never would have thought this would be the case
hell, I wouldn't have thought I'd be engaged 6months ago!
But I happened to meet the perfect man not so long ago
We are two peas in a pod
similar but different enough to be interesting
he loves me
i love him
I didn't think he existed
the one who is as perfect for me as I am for him
now don't get me wrong,
he's certainly not perfect
but he's perfect for me.
he gave me a beautiful ring
proposed on horseback in the rolling hills of upstate New York.
We'll get married in a year or two, once I'm finished with school.
We'll have a small hobby farm and provide for ourselves.
I'm estatic
I never thought I'd meet the one
but here he is!
A blessing indeed. :)
Monday, October 12, 2009
Change on the wind
The summer is over and I neglected this poor blog.
I have a lot of plans for the winter, lots of projects I'd like to start (and finish!)
I'm hoping to embark on an adventure towards a more self-sufficient and sustainable life.
So, stay tuned. Once I move back home and get things settled I plan to update lots more!.
I have a lot of plans for the winter, lots of projects I'd like to start (and finish!)
I'm hoping to embark on an adventure towards a more self-sufficient and sustainable life.
So, stay tuned. Once I move back home and get things settled I plan to update lots more!.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Springtime
I made it to 20. woo :D
10 days until Mackinac, eek!
I need to pack like no other
it's raining
i wish it wouldn't
school is almost over
this week and next
you can now find me on twitter as: BohemianWonder
hehe
i'm not making any promises about keeping up on it
we shall see
i'm thoroughly excited for summer
can't wait for my island
and all my lovely people
10 days until Mackinac, eek!
I need to pack like no other
it's raining
i wish it wouldn't
school is almost over
this week and next
you can now find me on twitter as: BohemianWonder
hehe
i'm not making any promises about keeping up on it
we shall see
i'm thoroughly excited for summer
can't wait for my island
and all my lovely people
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
A Charming Bohemian
Bo⋅he⋅mi⋅an[boh-hee-mee-uhn]
–noun 1. a native or inhabitant of Bohemia.
2. (usually lowercase) a person, as an artist or writer, who lives and acts free of regard for conventional rules and practices.
3. the Czech language, esp. as spoken in Bohemia.
4. a Gypsy.
–adjective 5. of or pertaining to Bohemia, its people, or their language.
6. (usually lowercase) pertaining to or characteristic of the unconventional life of a bohemian.
7. living a wandering or vagabond life, as a Gypsy.
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so...apparently I am bohemian,
according to my parents
and my friends
as has been mentioned in offhand comments
-----
i do believe i am quite ok with that
if i wasn't
would i still be me?
no
i don't think i would
life would be very droll
droller than it is now
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i can't wait to hit the road again
i'm anxious to see what this year will bring
the prospect of change
is thrilling.
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me;
a charming little bohemian.
–noun 1. a native or inhabitant of Bohemia.
2. (usually lowercase) a person, as an artist or writer, who lives and acts free of regard for conventional rules and practices.
3. the Czech language, esp. as spoken in Bohemia.
4. a Gypsy.
–adjective 5. of or pertaining to Bohemia, its people, or their language.
6. (usually lowercase) pertaining to or characteristic of the unconventional life of a bohemian.
7. living a wandering or vagabond life, as a Gypsy.
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so...apparently I am bohemian,
according to my parents
and my friends
as has been mentioned in offhand comments
-----
i do believe i am quite ok with that
if i wasn't
would i still be me?
no
i don't think i would
life would be very droll
droller than it is now
-----
i can't wait to hit the road again
i'm anxious to see what this year will bring
the prospect of change
is thrilling.
-----
me;
a charming little bohemian.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Magnify the Most Difficult Details
Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
One day you're certain of what you're doing
You've planned the next bit out
Even given some thought to next year
Then Life sneaks up on you
and trips you
things get all muddled
you're not so certain of your plans anymore
if only it were easier
it's such a sensitive situation
it is though inevitable
i always knew
i had hoped, and thought perhaps that
it would have lasted longer
a chasm has been torn asunder
it's disintegrating
-----
if only to demolish the old
to make way for the new
it does not come without a price
-----
i realize now
what it could be like
----
it's simple a matter of capturing it.....
One day you're certain of what you're doing
You've planned the next bit out
Even given some thought to next year
Then Life sneaks up on you
and trips you
things get all muddled
you're not so certain of your plans anymore
if only it were easier
it's such a sensitive situation
it is though inevitable
i always knew
i had hoped, and thought perhaps that
it would have lasted longer
a chasm has been torn asunder
it's disintegrating
-----
if only to demolish the old
to make way for the new
it does not come without a price
-----
i realize now
what it could be like
----
it's simple a matter of capturing it.....
Sunday, February 1, 2009
I'm addicted
I'm addicted to color.
i am.
i need it
it's an intricate part of who i am
hell is a white room with white doors and white windows and a white world
heaven is color
glorious color
i adore color
a brilliant deep red is by far my favorite
rich chocolate brown is a close second
i like yellow greens
blue greens
turqoise
teal
cerulean
robins egg blue
sky blue
i like yellow
i like gold
i like purple
i like pink
the only color i really don't like is a deep forest green
i require color
like i require air
i am.
i need it
it's an intricate part of who i am
hell is a white room with white doors and white windows and a white world
heaven is color
glorious color
i adore color
a brilliant deep red is by far my favorite
rich chocolate brown is a close second
i like yellow greens
blue greens
turqoise
teal
cerulean
robins egg blue
sky blue
i like yellow
i like gold
i like purple
i like pink
the only color i really don't like is a deep forest green
i require color
like i require air
Monday, January 12, 2009
the population of rolly backpacks is OUT OF CONTROL
i started classes today...
actually, i've only been to one so far
Cermaics
WOO
haha.
it's really a lot of the same stuff I did in highschool
but it'll be nice to get back with clay again
i'm off to painting class in bit here
so far. it's tolerable
i'm not so sure how i feel about being at the texas campus
instead of downtown
i feel like there's a very large population of
rolling backbacks... [carry your shit]
dump people... [they're everywhere!]
socially inept people... [yeeeah...awkward!]
not to mention all the people from highschool
that i'd really rather not see anymore.
or talk to
or whatever
ugh.
i think i'll go back downtown next winter
it doesn't feel quite so much like a community college down there.
it's more like a small private design school.
then i think i'll finish an associates in either graphic design or illustration.
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I got a new job!
hooray!
i quite the GAP :D
best day of my life
haha
i got a job at a Greenhouse in comstock
planting stuff, basically doing factory type work, but in a better environment. :)
anyhoo, it pays much better and the hours are better
so that oughta hold me over until this summer
oh summer
i'm really starting to miss Mackinac
i wasn't sure when i left if i'd go back for another summer
but i miss is too much to not go back for at least one more year
i hope too that gary will come back north
even if he doesn't work for the parks
i'd miss him terribly if he was in Jackson for the summer :(
actually, i've only been to one so far
Cermaics
WOO
haha.
it's really a lot of the same stuff I did in highschool
but it'll be nice to get back with clay again
i'm off to painting class in bit here
so far. it's tolerable
i'm not so sure how i feel about being at the texas campus
instead of downtown
i feel like there's a very large population of
rolling backbacks... [carry your shit]
dump people... [they're everywhere!]
socially inept people... [yeeeah...awkward!]
not to mention all the people from highschool
that i'd really rather not see anymore.
or talk to
or whatever
ugh.
i think i'll go back downtown next winter
it doesn't feel quite so much like a community college down there.
it's more like a small private design school.
then i think i'll finish an associates in either graphic design or illustration.
-----
I got a new job!
hooray!
i quite the GAP :D
best day of my life
haha
i got a job at a Greenhouse in comstock
planting stuff, basically doing factory type work, but in a better environment. :)
anyhoo, it pays much better and the hours are better
so that oughta hold me over until this summer
oh summer
i'm really starting to miss Mackinac
i wasn't sure when i left if i'd go back for another summer
but i miss is too much to not go back for at least one more year
i hope too that gary will come back north
even if he doesn't work for the parks
i'd miss him terribly if he was in Jackson for the summer :(
Sunday, January 4, 2009
here's to old farewells and new beginnings
I'm afraid i've negleted this poor blog.
I'm afraid the way i've left things off since the last post suggests i found the railroad tracks ;P
nevermind about that
things are much much better
my darling is a safe warm place
with a fluffy homicidal muffin on legs [kitten] to keep him company.
I have since gotten a job at the GAP which i hope to quite soon
in favor of working at a greenhouse planting plants and the like
i finished my 3rd semester in college
and have since begun to re-evaluate what i'm doing with my life
it's been a 'fun' trip....
------
i was at work the other day
i really didn't want to be there to begin with
it was New Years Day for crying out loud...
AND i had worked the night before.
who does that? who schedules someone for both those days.
jerks. that's who.
anyhoo
this 'charming' woman comes in
[i was working on the kids side...which i loathe]
and has some returns to make
she was generally unpleasant and not very helpful
she then pulls this kids skirt out that she had bought
and asks if we have anymore in the back,
because that skirt seems to be cut "a little narrow"
but what the problem REALLY is, is that her kid is just too big to fit into it
nevermind that the kid is probably only 5ish years old
and we do happen to offer a plethora of girls skirts made for older girls
i take the skirt from her and do a merchandise locator
[the computer looks to see if we have it in our store, or a nearby store]
it comes up as '1'. which usually means we don't have it, or the only one is already out on the floor.
i tell the woman we don't have any in the back
she says 'well can't you just go back and look?'
me: the computer says there aren't any
her: well can you just go look?
me: no, i can't. there aren't any, anyways.
her: you can't take a minute to go back and check?
me: no, i am the only one on the floor on this side and i cannot leave to go look
her: well how come you don't have any?
me: *shrug* i dunno, we're inbetween seasons right now, it might be on it's way out
her: it just came in yesterday! it's right over there! *points*
me: *shrug* well, i'm sorry, but i can't help you. We don't have any in the back.
her: *storms off* muttering about talking to a manager
ok. the moral of this story, is that if you're a jerk to me. I will do the minimum to serve you.
on the other hand, if your pleasant and nice, i will do whatever i can to help you find what your looking for and save you some money.
so be nice to your cashiers, sales associates, servers etc.
they have more power than you think. :D
----
ok...enough with the ranting.
i'll try not to neglet this so much...
there's plenty that happened in the last two months, but i'm not going to go over it all
a quick re-cap.
school sucked, but i passed my classes.
the holidays were very nice
i was happy that gary came for christmas dinner
my time has otherwise been spent at school.work.gary's. and home.
school starts again on the 12th. should be fun. my classes:
modern culture & the arts, creative writing, ceramics, and painting.
:D
I'm afraid the way i've left things off since the last post suggests i found the railroad tracks ;P
nevermind about that
things are much much better
my darling is a safe warm place
with a fluffy homicidal muffin on legs [kitten] to keep him company.
I have since gotten a job at the GAP which i hope to quite soon
in favor of working at a greenhouse planting plants and the like
i finished my 3rd semester in college
and have since begun to re-evaluate what i'm doing with my life
it's been a 'fun' trip....
------
i was at work the other day
i really didn't want to be there to begin with
it was New Years Day for crying out loud...
AND i had worked the night before.
who does that? who schedules someone for both those days.
jerks. that's who.
anyhoo
this 'charming' woman comes in
[i was working on the kids side...which i loathe]
and has some returns to make
she was generally unpleasant and not very helpful
she then pulls this kids skirt out that she had bought
and asks if we have anymore in the back,
because that skirt seems to be cut "a little narrow"
but what the problem REALLY is, is that her kid is just too big to fit into it
nevermind that the kid is probably only 5ish years old
and we do happen to offer a plethora of girls skirts made for older girls
i take the skirt from her and do a merchandise locator
[the computer looks to see if we have it in our store, or a nearby store]
it comes up as '1'. which usually means we don't have it, or the only one is already out on the floor.
i tell the woman we don't have any in the back
she says 'well can't you just go back and look?'
me: the computer says there aren't any
her: well can you just go look?
me: no, i can't. there aren't any, anyways.
her: you can't take a minute to go back and check?
me: no, i am the only one on the floor on this side and i cannot leave to go look
her: well how come you don't have any?
me: *shrug* i dunno, we're inbetween seasons right now, it might be on it's way out
her: it just came in yesterday! it's right over there! *points*
me: *shrug* well, i'm sorry, but i can't help you. We don't have any in the back.
her: *storms off* muttering about talking to a manager
ok. the moral of this story, is that if you're a jerk to me. I will do the minimum to serve you.
on the other hand, if your pleasant and nice, i will do whatever i can to help you find what your looking for and save you some money.
so be nice to your cashiers, sales associates, servers etc.
they have more power than you think. :D
----
ok...enough with the ranting.
i'll try not to neglet this so much...
there's plenty that happened in the last two months, but i'm not going to go over it all
a quick re-cap.
school sucked, but i passed my classes.
the holidays were very nice
i was happy that gary came for christmas dinner
my time has otherwise been spent at school.work.gary's. and home.
school starts again on the 12th. should be fun. my classes:
modern culture & the arts, creative writing, ceramics, and painting.
:D
Monday, October 20, 2008
Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted
what i would do for $200 right now
anything
i would like peanut butter off of a hobos toes
or get locked in a room with a tiger
life just sucks right now
it just does
it drives me crazy
its breaking my heart
that theres nothing more i can do
nothing i can offer
nothing i can say
fucking
nothing
it hurts far too much
when did i start caring this much?
why do i care this much?
i try to keep my friends at a minimum
because i care
but the ones that i've got
myself included
seem to be falling apart all around me
i don't know what else to do
fuck this
fuck life
where are the railroad tracks?
anything
i would like peanut butter off of a hobos toes
or get locked in a room with a tiger
life just sucks right now
it just does
it drives me crazy
its breaking my heart
that theres nothing more i can do
nothing i can offer
nothing i can say
fucking
nothing
it hurts far too much
when did i start caring this much?
why do i care this much?
i try to keep my friends at a minimum
because i care
but the ones that i've got
myself included
seem to be falling apart all around me
i don't know what else to do
fuck this
fuck life
where are the railroad tracks?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Norman my ass
so, I was having issues with my fancypants Adobe Creative Suite' 3 Design Standard.
in that, when I tried to open my programs it told me that the "licensing for this product is no longer valid"
or some such nonsense like that.
so. I call Adobe customer support
who else do i get
but Norman.
now as we all know, India is the home of all tech supports that were ever created
so Norman...this Indian man answers the phone after some terrible 'hold music'
and i proceed to get transfered to 4 different Indians and one American...
omg
finally. we get to...ralph? i think his "name" was.
36 min 47 sec later.
all i learn is that i should uninstall then reinstall the programs
Ya coulda told me that to begin with!
dumbasses
oy veh
i HATE talking to tech supports of anything
they assume you know nothing...rightly so.
but still.
i'm not THAT stupid.
Venting aside. I'm currently re=installing the Design Suite...so with any luck That'll fix it...
otherwise...someone in India is gettin slapped...
~_~
anyhoo on with the rest of life
----
there's a lot I wish I could talk about
but i can't really
not yet
not here
fuck
----
I got my Voter Identification Card
I will be voting for the next President on Nov 4th.
Despite all the fire & brimstone talk about America
we still remain a fine country i think.
----
I got a job working at The GAP for the holiday season
joy.
~_~
if nothing else that'll give me some retail on my resume
which will help in future jobs
i hope.
it's only part time
so i'm hoping to pick up another part-time job as well
i need to make some money. soon...
----
this is not going where I had thought it would
----
my life is not going where I had originally thought it would
hell
i don't even know what i'll be doing next year
i don't know what I want to do with my life
I don't know what I want to be when i grow up
yeah yeah yeah....i know i don't "have to know" right now
but it sure would be nice
fuck
i don't want to be an illustrator
or a graphic designer
i don't want to be in the professional design industry. period.
i don't want to be a nurse or a doctor
i want nothing to do with science or math
i really don't care a whole lot for history either
i like art
i like books
i like animals
now what the hell can i do with that?
i've considered taking my chances as an artist...
but um...i like eating...occasionally...
i'd like to get back with horses
in fact, i'd be pretty content to work on a farm for a while...
these things are so much easier to decide when your single
you don't have to worry about where your other is
what they want to do
where they will work
where you'd live
etc etc etc
but at the same time i suppose it's nice having an other
someone who's there with you, no matter what.
oy
life is not what i expected it to be
all i can do is take it one day at a time
and keep my eyes on the goal....
...being the crazy cat lady in the big scary house in the old neighborhood...
its all that inbetween life stuff that worries me.....
in that, when I tried to open my programs it told me that the "licensing for this product is no longer valid"
or some such nonsense like that.
so. I call Adobe customer support
who else do i get
but Norman.
now as we all know, India is the home of all tech supports that were ever created
so Norman...this Indian man answers the phone after some terrible 'hold music'
and i proceed to get transfered to 4 different Indians and one American...
omg
finally. we get to...ralph? i think his "name" was.
36 min 47 sec later.
all i learn is that i should uninstall then reinstall the programs
Ya coulda told me that to begin with!
dumbasses
oy veh
i HATE talking to tech supports of anything
they assume you know nothing...rightly so.
but still.
i'm not THAT stupid.
Venting aside. I'm currently re=installing the Design Suite...so with any luck That'll fix it...
otherwise...someone in India is gettin slapped...
~_~
anyhoo on with the rest of life
----
there's a lot I wish I could talk about
but i can't really
not yet
not here
fuck
----
I got my Voter Identification Card
I will be voting for the next President on Nov 4th.
Despite all the fire & brimstone talk about America
we still remain a fine country i think.
----
I got a job working at The GAP for the holiday season
joy.
~_~
if nothing else that'll give me some retail on my resume
which will help in future jobs
i hope.
it's only part time
so i'm hoping to pick up another part-time job as well
i need to make some money. soon...
----
this is not going where I had thought it would
----
my life is not going where I had originally thought it would
hell
i don't even know what i'll be doing next year
i don't know what I want to do with my life
I don't know what I want to be when i grow up
yeah yeah yeah....i know i don't "have to know" right now
but it sure would be nice
fuck
i don't want to be an illustrator
or a graphic designer
i don't want to be in the professional design industry. period.
i don't want to be a nurse or a doctor
i want nothing to do with science or math
i really don't care a whole lot for history either
i like art
i like books
i like animals
now what the hell can i do with that?
i've considered taking my chances as an artist...
but um...i like eating...occasionally...
i'd like to get back with horses
in fact, i'd be pretty content to work on a farm for a while...
these things are so much easier to decide when your single
you don't have to worry about where your other is
what they want to do
where they will work
where you'd live
etc etc etc
but at the same time i suppose it's nice having an other
someone who's there with you, no matter what.
oy
life is not what i expected it to be
all i can do is take it one day at a time
and keep my eyes on the goal....
...being the crazy cat lady in the big scary house in the old neighborhood...
its all that inbetween life stuff that worries me.....
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Never take a blind date to a silent film.
really, you'd just spend the whole night explaining what was going on.
I'm still neglecting this poor blog. Mostly because there hasn't been anything much to talk about.
my life at the moment...
school mon and tues...1-9pm
nothing wed-sun...
stay up until 4am...sleep until noon...
putz on the computer
sometimes do homework
play with Fred
talk on the phone.
repeat.
oy.
with any luck I'll be able to find a job. It's not for lack of effort believe me.
I spend a lot of time perusing jobs and filling out applications.
otherwise I'll be going back up north this weekend and next.
I was looking back over some of my previous posts from this year
and I have arrived at a few conclusions
one. I am brilliant.
haha, no really, I am. I'm funny and clever and I write remarkably well.
two. I'm vain
as shown by my previous conclusion
three. Everytime I mention anything about being happy single
some shmutz shows up
not that i'm complaining... ;)
four. "insert clever title here"
This blog should be printed and preserved for future Historians. Because my name will be one to remember some day.
----
As far as real life goes.
My life is not taking the direction I thought it would.
I've decided that professional Graphic Design and Illustration are not for me
I just don't want to do it. I don't think I'd be happy.
I'd like to work with animals... but I don't want to be a Vet.
maybe a zookeeper or stable hand or something...
After this semester of design classes I'll be quiting the Design program at school.
Next semester I'll take some art classes because I still have some government money left...
My parents have been mostly supportive of me.
Though I can't make them understand that I'm not going to do something I'm not happy doing
They said that life doesn't work like that.
well. I refuse to settle. There is no reason why I can't be happy doing what I do.
I'll figure it out.
It always works out. Always.
maybe not how I originally thought it would. But it still works out...
----
I am pretty happy for the most part with where I am in life at the moment.
My art and creating has been fairly steady, and not totally terrible.
I think though that I need to start a new Web Gallery....I just have to find a good one...
well. That's all for this rather droll post for the moment...
I'm still neglecting this poor blog. Mostly because there hasn't been anything much to talk about.
my life at the moment...
school mon and tues...1-9pm
nothing wed-sun...
stay up until 4am...sleep until noon...
putz on the computer
sometimes do homework
play with Fred
talk on the phone.
repeat.
oy.
with any luck I'll be able to find a job. It's not for lack of effort believe me.
I spend a lot of time perusing jobs and filling out applications.
otherwise I'll be going back up north this weekend and next.
I was looking back over some of my previous posts from this year
and I have arrived at a few conclusions
one. I am brilliant.
haha, no really, I am. I'm funny and clever and I write remarkably well.
two. I'm vain
as shown by my previous conclusion
three. Everytime I mention anything about being happy single
some shmutz shows up
not that i'm complaining... ;)
four. "insert clever title here"
This blog should be printed and preserved for future Historians. Because my name will be one to remember some day.
----
As far as real life goes.
My life is not taking the direction I thought it would.
I've decided that professional Graphic Design and Illustration are not for me
I just don't want to do it. I don't think I'd be happy.
I'd like to work with animals... but I don't want to be a Vet.
maybe a zookeeper or stable hand or something...
After this semester of design classes I'll be quiting the Design program at school.
Next semester I'll take some art classes because I still have some government money left...
My parents have been mostly supportive of me.
Though I can't make them understand that I'm not going to do something I'm not happy doing
They said that life doesn't work like that.
well. I refuse to settle. There is no reason why I can't be happy doing what I do.
I'll figure it out.
It always works out. Always.
maybe not how I originally thought it would. But it still works out...
----
I am pretty happy for the most part with where I am in life at the moment.
My art and creating has been fairly steady, and not totally terrible.
I think though that I need to start a new Web Gallery....I just have to find a good one...
well. That's all for this rather droll post for the moment...
Sunday, September 7, 2008
something old, something new, change is a certainty
well, i think it's safe to say my life has changed dramatically even in the short time since my last post was written
the summer finished nothing like it started
i managed to stir up trouble several times over
some of which i can't mention just yet.
soon.
but i don't want to screw things up.
so i'm gonna keep my mouth shut.
life would be much easier
if people would go read a book
and mind their own business
oy
i'm home from mackinac
and miss it sorely
i miss my life there
which happens to be amazing
life at home...not terrible...but not mine.
i do however get significantly more time for art
which is nice
but i'd rather have my Mackinac Life...
in any case, we shall see how this all plays out over the next few months or so
my fingers are crossed
i hope it turns out well....
the summer finished nothing like it started
i managed to stir up trouble several times over
some of which i can't mention just yet.
soon.
but i don't want to screw things up.
so i'm gonna keep my mouth shut.
life would be much easier
if people would go read a book
and mind their own business
oy
i'm home from mackinac
and miss it sorely
i miss my life there
which happens to be amazing
life at home...not terrible...but not mine.
i do however get significantly more time for art
which is nice
but i'd rather have my Mackinac Life...
in any case, we shall see how this all plays out over the next few months or so
my fingers are crossed
i hope it turns out well....
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