i wish someone would happen

life is becoming monotonous....i hate it

i feel so trapped and restless

last night was terrible, nothing happened.

i hate living with my family

i love them

i just don't love living with them

i want to be on my own. away. free.

there's nothing i'd like better than doing something different right now

just going away

taking a trip

i don't know where to, i'm not really sure that it matters

just anywhere but here

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i watched Eternal Sunshine today...

in the movie two people meet each other, fall in love then both end up getting hurt, so they erase each other from their memories...

i do not ever want to forget.

i didn't think that he hurt me...that wasn't supposed to happen, i wasn't supposed to fall for anybody...i know better than that...but it did...and i thought i was ok...that i'm over it...and in a sense i am...but then at the same time i'm not...
i still think about him sometimes...the way he used to look at me...i still like talking to him, even if it's just for a minute...i miss him

i miss everyone SO much

i was so happy and content when i was there and with those people, and now i'm gone and i don't really have anyone

i hate it

i wish something would change...

i wish someone would happen