i concur

this weekend came and went all to quickly

i don't recall when it was that i wrote...thursday?

yes, we'll go with that...

friday morning i did my final presentation...the "Hugs" which i've been meaning to post in some fashion...
it went well, one kid said he wished the service actually exsisted, a fine compliment :)

then i went to orientation for the Air Zoo...that place really be a much better job for me

friday night...my old boss didn't think i'd show up to work at Full City....ha...i did...but i only made about $20...lame...

saturday morning i got up and headed to the Air Zoo, was there by 9am...trained all day...

it's really very simple and i had the hang of all the rides after like...the first time i did it...heh...

again...it's a very simple job...pretty much just push buttons and make sure nobody dies...but it'll be worthwhile. i hope. in any case it'll do to last me until spring.

gah...that's all i think about...Mackinac Island...things i'll do differently next year...things i'd like to do again...there is so much, i should really start writing it all down...

Nog Fest was...interesting. ...well, let me explain...

got there a lil after 8pm...exhausted...but there nonetheless...
i was pretty happy that i knew a good chunk of the people there...i hadn't realized how many of trace's friends i had met.

but then...there are just some people that should not be allowed to drink...seriously...

one guy...who nobody really knew...was probably one of the most obnoxious drunks i've ever met...and i don't usually mind drunks... :-/ but this guy....ergh...just...annoying...then he left :D

i did drink a little bit...had a glass of nog and kahlua...but it really didn't do anything...like...at all...it was a little dissapointing...haha...well...i take that back...i think it made me sleepier... :p i still don't know what a larger volume of alchol does to me...not really sure when i want to find out either...definetly with exeperienced people that i trust... though i'm not in any particular rush...i rather like having my wits about me :)

after all the..'extra' people left... (i.e. people i didn't really know, and didn't particularly care for) i had a lot more fun. we danced a bit....that was lots of fun...made me a little bit sad...reminded me of dancing at the Grand Hotel...(what did i say...ALWAYS thinking about the island!) but it was fun :D hmm...i don't really remember what all else happened...

we pulled out the couches and bunked down for the night...4 out of 5 times he picks me over her...don't really think it means much...not anymore...but it was something i had noticed at first...

there is just something so wonderful about waking up and cuddling with someone, before the day starts, before you have to worry about anything...you can just...be.

i wish i could have stayed longer...

but at this point my job gets priority...

i wish i could have been in two places at once...but i think he's doing ok...for now...i'll catch up with him later this week...and i think the cookies helped :) cookies always help :D

when i talked to Brent the other day, we talked a bit about attachment...to people and to places and how that can often make things harder...it is so true...so true...i fell in love with a place and a lifestyle and a few wonderful people this summer, and i would give the world to have it again...truly...i would give anything to be back there...i don't see myself returning for years on end, but i'd like to have a good run...get it out of my system...or fall in love with another place and lifestyle...

kalamazoo does not hold much of a future for me...and i'm ok with that...i'm not really sure what i want to do once i finish school...i'm not really sure where i want to go...not even sure that i care where i go, so long as it's not here...a part of me wishes i'd be involved with someone so i could just go wherever they are...but that also seems like a bit of a copout...

i've thought about going to a city...chicago or new york...but i'm not sure if i'm cut out for city life...especially new york...guess i won't know until i try...

i've recently become very interested in the history of things...and in old things...maybe i'll go somewhere with that...

i don't know if i'm actually cut out for graphic design... i mean... i can do it and all, but i don't know that i'm really any good... i wish i could find someone who would honestly critique my work, all aspects of it...

hmm...i've probably written enough for tonight...and i should probably go to sleep...i'm very tired...if i don't stop i shall have written an entire novel by the time i finish...haha...

anyways...what did i say? a wonderful wonderful week...i do treasure these moments through all the boredom in the weeks that follow these few special ones...

yeah...bedtime..i'm getting dramatic... :P