Past, Present and Forward!

The new year is almost here!
I can't believe it, while the minutes crawl, the days the years fly. I do just want to take a minute to reflect on the changes and the difficulties I've overcome in just a year. A year ago I was miserable and desperate, trapped. I was worked two terrible winter jobs, still without a penny to my name. I headed north for the summer with dreams of peace and freedom. It was a bit rocky at first, but by the end of the summer I had gained those two things, though not in the way I expected them. Now the year ends and the new one begins and I am engaged to the man of my dreams. The one God brought to me, for me, and I for him. The way we met and began to spend time together is simply to "coincidental" to be anything but a godsend. I love my darling so very much and I look forward to a happy life with him.
I'm on course now to be graduated with an Associates in Illustration by this time next year. I haven't been able to find any traditional work. But I have managed to pick up a few freelance jobs, which range from design to dogsitting. Which leaves me with a lot of time for myself. I have been trying hard not to simply waste it, though sometimes 'nothing' days are nice. After such a crazy summer it is so nice to just spend quiet peaceful days at home. I've spent lots of time creating all manner of things, catching up on my reading, learning how to do new things from the internet, spend time with my family and my darling, and dreaming about the homestead I want to someday have.

I did a lot of growing up this year. I've done a lot of growing up in the past few years. I've also learned a lot of important lessons. I learned the value of a dollar and the importance of "making-do" and also of being thrifty. I've learned what it means to be in a relationship; both good and bad. I wouldn't wish my ex on anyone, but I am thankful for the lessons he taught me, without them I wouldn't be as mature as I am now. I'm beginning to learn what it means to love someone, to be a partner or a team with your other. I've realized (and am unspeakably thankful) how fortunate and blessed I've been with the family God has given me. Not everyone has been as lucky as I have, I hope that someday I'll be able to pass that on to my kids. I'm trying to be responsible, to think ahead and pray often.

As for next year;
I'm not one for New Years resolutions. I probably won't start an exercise regime, or go on a diet (at least not until the summer) I will however do my best to stay positive through all my classes as dreary as they may be. I'll do what it takes to graduate next December.
I'll continue to strengthen my relationship with Rob, to understand him better and to love and support him, so that we have a healthy foundation for our marriage. I'll also start to formulate plans for our wedding.
I hope to make some new friends and enjoy the Island in the summer.

I eagerly await the blessings God has for me. It will be a good year.

A Modest Proposal

I'm engaged!

A year ago I never would have thought this would be the case

hell, I wouldn't have thought I'd be engaged 6months ago!

But I happened to meet the perfect man not so long ago

We are two peas in a pod

similar but different enough to be interesting

he loves me

i love him

I didn't think he existed

the one who is as perfect for me as I am for him

now don't get me wrong,

he's certainly not perfect

but he's perfect for me.

he gave me a beautiful ring

proposed on horseback in the rolling hills of upstate New York.

We'll get married in a year or two, once I'm finished with school.

We'll have a small hobby farm and provide for ourselves.

I'm estatic

I never thought I'd meet the one

but here he is!

A blessing indeed. :)

Change on the wind

The summer is over and I neglected this poor blog.

I have a lot of plans for the winter, lots of projects I'd like to start (and finish!)

I'm hoping to embark on an adventure towards a more self-sufficient and sustainable life.

So, stay tuned. Once I move back home and get things settled I plan to update lots more!.

Springtime

I made it to 20. woo :D

10 days until Mackinac, eek!

I need to pack like no other

it's raining

i wish it wouldn't

school is almost over

this week and next

you can now find me on twitter as: BohemianWonder

hehe

i'm not making any promises about keeping up on it

we shall see

i'm thoroughly excited for summer

can't wait for my island

and all my lovely people

Save an Alien! They're really cute! :D

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What to Increase? What to Reduce? What to Maintain?

i suck at life.

end of story.

A Charming Bohemian

Bo⋅he⋅mi⋅an[boh-hee-mee-uhn]

–noun 1. a native or inhabitant of Bohemia.
2. (usually lowercase) a person, as an artist or writer, who lives and acts free of regard for conventional rules and practices.
3. the Czech language, esp. as spoken in Bohemia.
4. a Gypsy.

–adjective 5. of or pertaining to Bohemia, its people, or their language.
6. (usually lowercase) pertaining to or characteristic of the unconventional life of a bohemian.
7. living a wandering or vagabond life, as a Gypsy.

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so...apparently I am bohemian,

according to my parents

and my friends

as has been mentioned in offhand comments

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i do believe i am quite ok with that

if i wasn't

would i still be me?

no

i don't think i would

life would be very droll

droller than it is now

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i can't wait to hit the road again

i'm anxious to see what this year will bring

the prospect of change

is thrilling.

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me;

a charming little bohemian.

Magnify the Most Difficult Details

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

One day you're certain of what you're doing

You've planned the next bit out

Even given some thought to next year

Then Life sneaks up on you

and trips you

things get all muddled

you're not so certain of your plans anymore

if only it were easier

it's such a sensitive situation

it is though inevitable

i always knew

i had hoped, and thought perhaps that

it would have lasted longer

a chasm has been torn asunder

it's disintegrating

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if only to demolish the old

to make way for the new

it does not come without a price

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i realize now

what it could be like

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it's simple a matter of capturing it.....

I'm addicted

I'm addicted to color.

i am.

i need it

it's an intricate part of who i am

hell is a white room with white doors and white windows and a white world

heaven is color

glorious color

i adore color

a brilliant deep red is by far my favorite

rich chocolate brown is a close second

i like yellow greens

blue greens

turqoise

teal

cerulean

robins egg blue

sky blue

i like yellow

i like gold

i like purple

i like pink

the only color i really don't like is a deep forest green

i require color

like i require air

the population of rolly backpacks is OUT OF CONTROL

i started classes today...

actually, i've only been to one so far

Cermaics

WOO

haha.

it's really a lot of the same stuff I did in highschool

but it'll be nice to get back with clay again

i'm off to painting class in bit here

so far. it's tolerable

i'm not so sure how i feel about being at the texas campus

instead of downtown

i feel like there's a very large population of

rolling backbacks... [carry your shit]

dump people... [they're everywhere!]

socially inept people... [yeeeah...awkward!]

not to mention all the people from highschool

that i'd really rather not see anymore.

or talk to

or whatever

ugh.

i think i'll go back downtown next winter

it doesn't feel quite so much like a community college down there.

it's more like a small private design school.

then i think i'll finish an associates in either graphic design or illustration.

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I got a new job!

hooray!

i quite the GAP :D

best day of my life

haha

i got a job at a Greenhouse in comstock

planting stuff, basically doing factory type work, but in a better environment. :)

anyhoo, it pays much better and the hours are better

so that oughta hold me over until this summer

oh summer

i'm really starting to miss Mackinac

i wasn't sure when i left if i'd go back for another summer

but i miss is too much to not go back for at least one more year

i hope too that gary will come back north

even if he doesn't work for the parks

i'd miss him terribly if he was in Jackson for the summer :(

here's to old farewells and new beginnings

I'm afraid i've negleted this poor blog.

I'm afraid the way i've left things off since the last post suggests i found the railroad tracks ;P

nevermind about that

things are much much better

my darling is a safe warm place

with a fluffy homicidal muffin on legs [kitten] to keep him company.

I have since gotten a job at the GAP which i hope to quite soon

in favor of working at a greenhouse planting plants and the like

i finished my 3rd semester in college

and have since begun to re-evaluate what i'm doing with my life

it's been a 'fun' trip....

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i was at work the other day

i really didn't want to be there to begin with

it was New Years Day for crying out loud...

AND i had worked the night before.

who does that? who schedules someone for both those days.

jerks. that's who.

anyhoo

this 'charming' woman comes in

[i was working on the kids side...which i loathe]

and has some returns to make

she was generally unpleasant and not very helpful

she then pulls this kids skirt out that she had bought

and asks if we have anymore in the back,

because that skirt seems to be cut "a little narrow"

but what the problem REALLY is, is that her kid is just too big to fit into it

nevermind that the kid is probably only 5ish years old

and we do happen to offer a plethora of girls skirts made for older girls

i take the skirt from her and do a merchandise locator

[the computer looks to see if we have it in our store, or a nearby store]

it comes up as '1'. which usually means we don't have it, or the only one is already out on the floor.

i tell the woman we don't have any in the back

she says 'well can't you just go back and look?'

me: the computer says there aren't any

her: well can you just go look?

me: no, i can't. there aren't any, anyways.

her: you can't take a minute to go back and check?

me: no, i am the only one on the floor on this side and i cannot leave to go look

her: well how come you don't have any?

me: *shrug* i dunno, we're inbetween seasons right now, it might be on it's way out

her: it just came in yesterday! it's right over there! *points*

me: *shrug* well, i'm sorry, but i can't help you. We don't have any in the back.

her: *storms off* muttering about talking to a manager

ok. the moral of this story, is that if you're a jerk to me. I will do the minimum to serve you.
on the other hand, if your pleasant and nice, i will do whatever i can to help you find what your looking for and save you some money.

so be nice to your cashiers, sales associates, servers etc.

they have more power than you think. :D

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ok...enough with the ranting.

i'll try not to neglet this so much...

there's plenty that happened in the last two months, but i'm not going to go over it all

a quick re-cap.

school sucked, but i passed my classes.

the holidays were very nice

i was happy that gary came for christmas dinner

my time has otherwise been spent at school.work.gary's. and home.

school starts again on the 12th. should be fun. my classes:

modern culture & the arts, creative writing, ceramics, and painting.

:D