i hate this so much

life just..sucks...it just does...

i hate that i'm crying

i hate that i know better than to expect anything from him...but i can't help but hope...

i hate that i'm living at home

i hate that i'm so young

god damn

i just feel so completly isolated and unconnected...i don't know who to talk to...

i don't have anyone...

all that i really want is someone to just hold me...that's all...i just want that security, that comfort

i don't understand what i'm doing wrong...why i don't have that...

i hate feeling inadequate...i'm not good enough...

this sucks

it just...sucks...

i hate that i always feel sad and lonely...

that then i put on this ridiculous front...

fuck...

is it really so much to ask...just once......once....i want life to be happy again...